Change

       Change. That word has so much meaning. Change comes easy for some people, but for most it is hard. Some people can make a tough lifestyle change, and stay dedicated to it, but most people can't. I, unfortunately, fall in the latter category. I find change difficult, and in some instances, near impossible. I know what I need to do for the kind of change that I want in my life, but the hardest part is finding a starting point, or a sign. I'm trying so unbelievably hard to be a great father to my son, but it is so incredibly hard. Actually, I don't even think hard is a good enough word to use. It's tough. It's tough knowing I will never have much of a life ever again. It's tough knowing that I can't do things when I want to do them anymore. And it's tough not ever getting any sleep. I know that this sounds like stage ten bitching, but it's a process. A process of becoming something that I never knew I could be. And that's a great father. It's change. But more importantly, it's a change for a chance for my son to have a better life than I did. I hope I can dig deep within myself and find the strength to make the changes necessary to give him a great life and to give my wife and I a better and healthier lifestyle. Whoever reads this, if any, please keep me and my family in your thoughts as I try to become something more for them. I wish for all of the help I can get.

                                     "It's a long and lonely road, when you know you'll walk alone"

The Mirror Which Flatters Not

       What is life? What is life for, exactly? There are questions that many people ask themselves on a daily basis. Everyone's life is different, and I don't have the answers for knowing what everyone's life is for, what it leads to, or why they are on this Earth. I don't even have the answers for my own life. But, I do believe that everyone has a purpose in life. Everyone is here on this Earth for a reason. We, as people, often spend too much time worrying about what we look like, and what kind of people we are on the outside, while not realizing that who we are on the inside is tenfold compared to the outside. We are almost always too concerned about flattering people on the outside, that we completely forget we have an inside. Next time you look into the mirror, look beyond yourself, look beyond your physical traits. Because the most flattering thing about anyone is their heart. Every person has one, and every person's is unique. Don't take one single breath in life for granted, because life can easily be taken away with one breath. To anyone who reads this, I challenge you to look beyond yourself, look beyond your physical traits, and find out the person that you truly are. Your life is beautiful. Embrace what you have, believe in what you believe is right, and love uncontrollably. Tomorrow may never come, and if I knew that I wouldn't have a tomorrow, I would make sure that I lived my life for the person that I truly am on the inside, not for what people saw me as on the outside. The mirror is not always flattering, but it can be if you know who you truly are. I love all of you

Life, as of now

       Well, I finally gave in and set up a blog. I don't really know why, though. I figured this would be a way to get things off of my chest when I need to. My sister has been trying to get me to get a blog for some time now. She hasn't mentioned it in awhile, but I figured I would. I saw her blog post earlier, and eventually gave in. So, world, prepare to hear my thoughts on music, games, film, sports, and life.